Tuesday, 15 October 2013

Again.

 

Sometime I'm hoping that it will not happen again but it is not exactly what we've planned because God is the one who determine whether it is good enough for me or not. I can't realize that the history that I've made before just happened to me again. Now, I'm really tired of trying in love with someone because love is hurt. You have to make a research of something that you've been searching for if is not it will haunt us. After, what he did to me, I just knew he was not the right guy that I'm searching for. I felt really stupid and broken. I still remember on my birthday, I stay up all night to wait his wished "Happy Birthday" to me, but he never wished me. He was actually the guy with a mask, he looked nice guy but he wasn't. Sometime, when I think it back it was like "Why, I'm chasing you like crazy. I know you will never think about me". Last two days, he was chatting with her and that girl has more than what I have. I'm broken and I felt like I really want to run from where actually I'm standing right now and just go to somewhere that place have people that didn't know me. I just wanted to delete everything until I could forget your name, what you like, what you dislike and of course your life. Because of I've started to know you, I felt like my life was over and died. You're like a murder. I'm hoping that someday you will suddenly remember what have you done to me. The pain that you gave to me, it was really painful. I just wanted to thank to you because of you I've learnt how to be someone that really carefully to choose somebody for my life. From those just happened to me make me woke up from you curse that I'm actually an expansive and exclusive girl and the only could own me, was the same like me. Actually, I'm still wonder, "Why actually I like you?" . Now, I'm a Miss Moving On and after I moved on, I really could feel the calm and I could feel we didn't have any connection but shame feeling still haunted me and stupid feeling also still haunted myself. Life wasn't easy so, to make it easy we must face it because with that we have experience to face the same problem on our future.
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