I don't know how to start but since July pasted, I felt gone. I really want to start a new life, I want to stay alone in my own world with my family. I want don't want to see anyone else. I just want to enjoy my life alone. I wish person who knew me, never know my name, my story and all about me. I felt people are trying to be nice to me but actually they are not, they can be a good actor but they never can be a good actor to God, Allah s.w.t. I wish I can start my life from beginning but it's too late to do that, what I can do just be a new person who never care about anybody's story and problems. I want to built something magical that people surrounding me never expect that actually who I am. I can stand by my own self and I wish someday I will leave this place and I want to go somewhere that has a beautiful scenery and I can rest my mind from people that I know. I feel fool for trying to love someone that actually I already knew that couldn't get him. Why must I'm wasting all these tears on him? He loves someone and I will never know it. Someday I will make sure all the tears that I'm dealing with now will be my happy life on my future. I must start to learn how to appreciate my history because my history right now I can stand by my own self and I still can breath with a smile to move on in life. I shall start a new life, no love and I will happy forever.