Monday, 4 March 2013

Cruel Life!!


Life must be great because it is decorated with feelings and emotion.We can say our life is happy as if it is decorated with colourful fireworks but, when our life turns out to be sad and sorrow, it seems like you have the fireworks, but it does not work at all - does not blow off.

My life must be different than what you guys are having! Ever since 2013 started, I felt like my life was boring until I reached a point where I feel like it is better for me not to live anymore.I have my love which is my family but they seems like does not care me and love me.I have a lot of friends but yet I feel so lonely.I can say my life is like a very flaf music with no climax.A boring song that keeps on playing but no one is intrested to listen to it! I tried to know myself, find myself.Who am I ? I must know myself before I let people to know more about me.

I always sit by my ownself in my bedroom.When everything is so silent, I can only hear the birds chirping and the fan swirls at its own pace.

I want everybody to know what I feel cause I know there out-side many teenage especially girls think the same thing and feel the same feeling so, I decided to shared it even, it is personal things about myself.Be honest, if I tell you how I feel, I don't know what will happen to my life in the future.Crying all night without any reason? I never make  my parents proud, because I know ,my achivements still do not reach their targets or levls that they had set up.It made me wonder- Am I a good daugther to them?

People say that "Every girls has their own beauty but some for them could not see their own beauty"I never believe those words.Why I cannot get a beautiful life like other people have? I am so tired of laughing and crying all by myself!

I have a lot of friends I feel like that they do not need me ar all.Am I alone in every situation? Turn off my handphone, crying and crying and crying as if that is the only way out.Then I asked to myself, "God, why do I feel so lifeless?"

Keep on blaming myself for what had happen.No one believes me.Even if I smile every morning does not mean I am happy.Living without any problem ahead.I am done!!! Thank you for reading.