Please don't...

To be  honest, I'm just scared of getting hurt again. I just a little too scared to get close because everyone who said they'd be there, left. Please don't fall in love to me. I also didn't understand what actually I felt on that time I really did love you so much until I could stay and wait almost 3 years without loving anyone. Even now after I knew that you just got break with that girl, I'm still hoping there's a space for me in your heart. After all that happened to me, when I saw someone who have a looked better that you, I didn't have any feeling of excited to have that man like I always wanted you to be with me. I become trauma of loving people or like a man. I become a sensitive girl, I'm easily touched when people surrounding me make a fun of me, I took it serious. Why??? That why when I'm with my girls, they talked to me about one guy, I didn't have any feeling on it maybe God faith said that I should stay in this world only accompany with my parents and only family. The only things that I'm afraid now, I'm afraid that when I'm going to college I might hurt the feeling a man who might have a feeling on me. I didn't mean to hurt anybody but after all of many rejection from you until I became shy to meet you and your friends. I knew, I'm not like your ex's, all f them have a beauty of brain. I'm afraid that you might what to try again with me and I might lose you forever better I'd never say hi. I could stay alone in this world as long as, my parents always support me in whatever I will do or I'll might do but please do not try to love me. I'm not perfect for you, you will have a better woman soon. I hope someday you wonder about me because I almost do.....