Please don't...

To be  honest, I'm just scared of getting hurt again. I just a little too scared to get close because everyone who said they'd be there, left. Please don't fall in love to me. I also didn't understand what actually I felt on that time I really did love you so much until I could stay and wait almost 3 years without loving anyone. Even now after I knew that you just got break with that girl, I'm still hoping there's a space for me in your heart. After all that happened to me, when I saw someone who have a looked better that you, I didn't have any feeling of excited to have that man like I always wanted you to be with me. I become trauma of loving people or like a man. I become a sensitive girl, I'm easily touched when people surrounding me make a fun of me, I took it serious. Why??? That why when I'm with my girls, they talked to me about one guy, I didn't have any feeling on it maybe God faith said that I should stay in this world only accompany with my parents and only family. The only things that I'm afraid now, I'm afraid that when I'm going to college I might hurt the feeling a man who might have a feeling on me. I didn't mean to hurt anybody but after all of many rejection from you until I became shy to meet you and your friends. I knew, I'm not like your ex's, all f them have a beauty of brain. I'm afraid that you might what to try again with me and I might lose you forever better I'd never say hi. I could stay alone in this world as long as, my parents always support me in whatever I will do or I'll might do but please do not try to love me. I'm not perfect for you, you will have a better woman soon. I hope someday you wonder about me because I almost do.....

Memorable.

Today the third day, I left you with my words that I didn't mean it at all "All the best, Syazwan". The way you called my name, I could still felt the feeling - butterflies on my stomach. Thank you so much for our conversation even it was just conversation about worked but at least you did my dreamed come true. Everyday I prayed to Allah s.w.t - hopes one day you will start the conversation between us. The day that I waited just happened to me. I never thought that you looked very cute when you're nervous and your innocent face still fresh on my mind. The memories between us such a beautiful memory to remember. I let you go away from my life because I didn't want your life trouble and mess up only because of me. I only believe on Allah s.w.t's miracle - I didn't want to give a high hopes on you because if someone broken my heart, I needed a lot of time to cover up my broken heart. But you always in my prays. If you're not my faith I will stop give a high hopes on you. I believe there's more woman outside better than me. I'm still teenager, I also didn't know what the feeling of love someone very hard until I couldn't let him go away from me. The most memorable was when you're secretly look at me while I'm doing my worked.

"Thank You love, I wish one day you will meet better woman for your  life"